El Niño

Rest in peace, Mother Earth.

I can only imagine a world that’s full of life, full of energy from within. A world where nature meets technology, a world like no other. A lingering sweet scent in the air that can make one think problems and selfishness do not exist. A structure which is not rigid but rather organic. A world in an artist’s eyes.

The earth is having its revenge on us. I can only feel her wrath and anger towards us. Yet still..despite all these..she sends a comforting breeze at night to relieve us from exhausting heat. I believe she just wants us to realize that we still deserve to live, to change our ways, to speak to her again. They need our friendship. We have to work together with them else this earth will fail to survive.

We are here now and we have a chance to change this world, to give life to this world, not to destroy it.

We must face and survive the curse of El Niño.

Shoes and More

New shoes! I’m putting on a summer outfit so I needed this.
It had been a wonderful shopping weekend!
I got quality stuff for cheap, actually.

And more…

Skating on Thin Ice

I would be so glad if I were hiking instead.

I’m not very good at ice skating. I do know how to skate on ice though. I’ve done it twice or thrice in my life, the last time being 2 years ago when I just finally got out of school. I remember falling hard on ice. Good thing it was indoors.

danger thin ice

But to be on thin ice, just one mistake, one crack and you’ll be a huge ice cube in freezing cold water. And life is like that right now, for most people I know. Even my own. I could break down and cry almost every night. I am filled with uncertainties, anxieties, peer pressure and everything else sucking in negative energy straight to my life. I feel so hellish right now even with the seemingly calm, quiet, sort of happy facade. I know I am emotionally unstable and subject to being bipolar. One minute my day is good, the next it’s just bad. Plus, I am so unsure of myself.

I need some time to shut out everything and see the light at the end of the tunnel once again. Whether it kills me or not, I have to get out. Fast. I need my willpower back.

Skate out of the ice. It will be spring soon.

But technically, it’s summer here. Heh.

Reminder of the Evening Breeze

Januaries and Februaries always bring with them this soothing cool breeze which still must have come from the melting snow-capped mountains of Siberia. Just this evening I was sitting on a plant platform outside the office building. The evening breeze roughly brushed against my skin yet it was comforting when it sent tingles up my spine.

This brought me back to my senses, that being aware that even if our world is slowly becoming a “wasteland”  it still beholds a beauty most take for granted. Yes, many people believe that the winds, the heat of the sun, the water, the solid ground that we stand on are not living things. So, why are we alive if they aren’t living things? Only life can support life. Without life, everything is nothing. Without the elements, we do not exist at all. The elements will not exist without life. They have life and they give life. They remain harmonious so as to be productive rather than destructive.

We humans forget that without them, we are nothing. They are not our tools, our subjects of exploitation. They are our keepers, like guardians protecting us from ceasing to exist.

We may all be aware of our mistakes now that Mother Nature is planning her greatest revenge and we take action. But, I believe the green revolution is not enough. We have to reach out to the elements, to understand them, give them in our own possible ways what they deserve. They deserve life too, and we should give it to them. Treat them as we are. Think of them as God’s own body parts being omnipresent and providing us all the love He can give.

The elements have life, remember that. They cannot understand our language, neither can we understand theirs. But we must find a way to work together to keep our existence.

Turning A Year Older

Most teenagers fear this ritual every year. Turning a year older means they’re not getting any younger even if they cling so hard to the teens of the numbers.

I have a different experience. In fact, I like turning another year older once a year. It’s not the age but rather the wisdom I gain that I look forward to as I turn older. Being at an age beyond 20, I get treated like an adult and people respect my opinions. They communicate with me at a professional level and never feel awkward about it.

In a few days I will turn 23. I am not ashamed of my age. I am proud to be 23. I enjoyed my 22nd year here on earth and there is no reason for me not to enjoy my 23rd year. I don’t want to live another ordinary day. I want to live a life that’s full of life’s surprises. At the same time, I don’t want to compromise the youth within me just to be accepted by every adult out there.

So now I ask myself, what am I rambling about in this post? I just want to let the world know that it will be my birthday soon. That’s just it.